Mother

 Mother's Day last a long time, I can not clearly record their feelings. This Mother's Day, the mother in this life the most tragic, saddest, most helpless holiday. Shortly before he lost her in her heart the most pro- occupies the most important position or that is all her sons, the last son. she is so weak, pale, helpless old. I can not even see her eyes, that there is a 93-year-olds lost her that The last and only rely on the Qi Huang and despair, that people could not bear striking eyes. When she is talking of that, God ye can not have eyes, but not to take her, but to be called away when her last son , three sons, she said ah, had not left, are leaving no one ah. I did what previous life sin, God should punish me so, I can not hear, nor see, I do not mind a little discomfort less than her, just not the same as us uncomfortable.
I said, everyone has a place can not touch, while the mother, is my fatal.
year-old mother suffered panic, the parents are dead, sister discrete, alone at home by their traffickers to the grandfather, his father made a child bride, desolately panic grew up with our brothers and sisters, and she only in the spring. that all her children, her early life is not his own, To children, what kind of pain she was, what kind of gas, what kind of crime can endure. she experienced in this life, Sino-Japanese War, the liberation war, three years of natural disasters, big pot, the Great Leap Forward, the Cultural Revolution, every time, no matter what the situation, she will open arms to protect the children under his wing.
news is worthy of the mother of their children Chula still do well. brother read outside the hospital in Beijing, stay in Beijing working life married, married the daughter of the old revolution, coupled with his achievements, during his lifetime and respected, but unfortunately died young. brother rebellious but very obedient, even though his life has had ups and downs in the local number also get on. third brother died young . Some sisters are good life.
I too small. It is said that too many mothers and the elderly as the baby did not want me, then go to the hospital abortion still do not know, another way to toss their hard with soil. but I am a hard life, how frustrating is not falling, I'll have to toss in the fruition, came to this world. Although not want me, but I still love born mother, rest her love for me. Our age difference between too, a child at home, said people lied to me, that there is a river in flood in the Tarim Basin, which has a child, the mother looked at poor wilt take me home. childhood I have been convinced, then go to school often imagined the road, passing the car stopped in my side, which is a beautiful and elegant woman down and told me that she is my mother, and then holding devastated I cried ... Oh.
The family had a large population, heavy housework, but also to live in, the children have always been big with small. the mother is basically too busy to think about me, sister child is low, poor health, no less than to work to housework at home with me. was just sister love, I am not willing to take me behind my back (when the children of rural popular with tape on his back) when the total secretly pinch my butt, I cried the mother of a sister to me not to tell her mother beat me, so I can not speak two young innocent to suffer to play, they later told me these when the joke, I really tears ah.
Thanks to a sister, love marriage, my sister was basically home tuition sponsorship. may be brought up since childhood because of me, good sister, loves me very much straightforward, more recently, our relationship. She's kind and warm to me a great impact, the second love of reading to my brother in law is also very good elementary education, I love reading, lots of common sense I have is from the book to understand. and so I grew up some time, the mother body is already very bad, when the brother was not at home, his father had sequelae of wrestling, no matter what, home away from home thanks to sister, sister, petite very pungent, like a man, the guardian of several of our sister. Later, two brother married a wife back home, less support my school, he felt up to the junior high school girls in rural areas is sufficient, and then high school is also meaningless, as it benefits home to work. But Big Brother is still, those firms protect my mother, brother does not say so keep on the good. brother who started to go home, I have read, and after all the fees brother there not a penny spent, is my own twist rope earned dig medicinal herbs, the mother to help I, the sister, not subsidy. then brother died, niece, nephew, nephew-law wife complained to school for my brother, and now I do not have a good return on them, I was speechless. I do not want a clarification. people are not on, and say that thing of the past to what purpose. This is my feeling has been less harmonious with the brother the reason. children are talking too rash, do not know the facts on the roots feeling very hurt.
home hard in my eyes so young there is nothing for parents to control and could not, my sisters leg to stand on, the day of His Career, I grew up Hai Kuotian high in freedom, love marriage to school work.
although the way I grew up the eldest mother has been high, I do not help, but worry about her and I was deeply felt love. She's a last resort in my stocking assertive training has benefited me endless.
Today, the mother of old, experienced the heaviest of life blow, old age childless, and the only son, she can imagine the grief of helpless despair, fear, but no one can not be replaced. As a daughter, I really could not bear to look at, but what can? many of life suffering only their own bear, I can do is try to keep her company. mother, your life so nice and wonderful, helpful, nothing to eat, drink less difficult times, there are beggars begging door, you never let an empty stomach away empty-handed, even so let their hungry children a meal you like, own it, let alone hungry. neighborhood someone something, you always try to help, and never retreat. why it is so good God is not blessing the people do not take pity on, to give so sad what happened.
mother was my only anxiety, not bear, tie him down. No matter who told me how to I do not care, okay I do not mind, but certainly better than the mother, who the mother is not good I can not tolerate a lot of things on my mind was very intelligent and very sophisticated, involving a mother, and I can not help myself, always simple-minded, knows will offend people thankless be annoying or turning back, do that stands out beaten. It was my mother, ah, spare no effort to do our best to keep my mother with me, old and weak, old and helpless, in a desperate mood of fear autistic can not extricate themselves, children need comfort care mother, we do not succeed tube care, and then avoid each other passing the buck, heartless, how can peace of mind it?!
text description of the mother's grief no pain in my heart no choice, write it down for a long time, always feel words are still ringing not entirely, but still made today in peace now, made in the peace festival, we hope the mother of the disaster from the past, Yusheng Jian Kang Pingan, really old age.